Oh how I wish this was true. I've a high propensity for depression because basically my life has been very difficult. Was late to many many milestones in my li

Oh how I wish this was true. I've a high propensity for depression because basically my life has been very difficult. Was late to many many milestones in my life - I know it's individual but I've missed out on a ton of things. Last time it hit me was the worst. Despite having a great toolset for dealing with it because it wasn't the first time, it was by the worst that I have ever seen. I went to the gym and became fit and muscular. Added a ton of muscle even had visible abs but it barely did anything. If it did anything it was so small that it was barely noticable. Meditation didn't help. Nothing did. Just flashbacks persistent anxiety to the point where I couldn't even relax to have a chill conversation with anyone I was in robotic mode. It was triggered by heartbreak & the covid. The worst was the inability to focus no matter the coffee my brain was just barely working. Attention span was at most 15 minutes. Everything seemed boring. The default state was so utterly bleak that a video on YT where people were chill and laughing was like absurd. The fatigue and lack of focus were the worst my mind just didn't grab onto things like it did before. It was terrifying. I'm out of it now and happy as a clam. I'm not wiser at all through the process. What I've found is that this world is out of our control and if life wants us tomorrow to dismantle us. There are no guides, no tips, no tricks, no plans, no escaping to reason, no escaping to the gym nor anything like that. Depression hits the control unit of the mind.