Eerily I recently spoke to someone who described an opioid addiction in almost the exact same way. He wanted to stop every single minute of every day, but spent

Eerily I recently spoke to someone who described an opioid addiction in almost the exact same way. He wanted to stop every single minute of every day, but spent every one of those minutes working towards more drugs. It was hard to listen to and imagine the experience of needing the thing you’ve come to hate more than anything. Eventually the “good feeling” it gave him felt faint and yet became psychologically unbearable at the same time. I don’t know what most people’s experiences are like, but this came to mind as I read your comment. Clearly not the same things, just similar enough to jog my memory. Autonomy, desire, and control are often extremely dysfunctional or even antagonistic of each other in humans.