I cannot see mental images and it never occurred to me until my late 30s that things like "mental palace", "imagine yourself on a beach", even kind of Feynman b

I cannot see mental images and it never occurred to me until my late 30s that things like "mental palace", "imagine yourself on a beach", even kind of Feynman ball mean literal picture that people kind of see in front of their eyes. I was trying really hard to do mental imaginary techniques to remember things in games (e.g. "imagine ikea shelf and put number when the next item respawns in corresponding box") until I realized that there is something wrong with me and the entire premise. For everyday life, I think that this is has some weight in the fact that the docs that I'm writing usually text heavy and don't have many illustrations/diagrams and I was/am solving spatial puzzles kind of "analytically" in my head.