You might well have fallen into this pattern anyway without hacker news. For you to want to change when still in your twenties could be seen as positive. Maybe

You might well have fallen into this pattern anyway without hacker news. For you to want to change when still in your twenties could be seen as positive. Maybe without hacker news you adopted the pattern but then don’t change till you are in your 40s. I was diagnosed very later in life as both adhd and autistic. When investigating what these things are I realised that the impulse control impact and attention to detail have lead to that behaviour earlier in life and likely affects a lot of people here. I try to temper that these days or at least to think about it more. Although, my reaction and patience to the horrors that politicians put us through are less tempered :-) Understanding it can make it less be seen as toxicity but to understand where it comes from and take the good bits away.