Similar experience. Firstly, I recommend exploring this with a therapist. I have found that I wasn't wired for happiness due to unresolved childhood experience

Similar experience. Firstly, I recommend exploring this with a therapist. I have found that I wasn't wired for happiness due to unresolved childhood experiences. Secondly, finding meaning and purpose - in nature, love / family / community. Materialism is destroying everyone's capacity for fulfilment.