These feelings started for me in my early thirties too. It sounds like typical burnout. Working the corporate life is soul-sucking, so don't discount the influe

These feelings started for me in my early thirties too. It sounds like typical burnout. Working the corporate life is soul-sucking, so don't discount the influence of that on your mental wellbeing. The repetition, the bullshit (I'm looking at you Scrum), the competitiveness, the politics, and feelings of imposter syndrome, it all has the power to wear you down to a nub, and after a while you begin to question what it's all for. The bottomline is the pay check is the only reason you stay, because you need a livelihood. This causes you to feel trapped and joyless. And, in my case at least, and it sounds like possibly yours, we derived meaning and satisfaction from our work earlier in our careers and are struggling with the fact that this is no longer the case. I've come to realize that for me, part of this was due to my own naiveté in the beginning of my career and I'll probably never recapture those early days of starting a Monday with vim and vigor. I think the term for this is jaded. I saw a video pop into my feed the other day which was timely, discussing this very subject. Maybe you'll find something useful in it, or at the very least find it relatable: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KEWV5yaj_2o&pp=ygUQcHJpbWFnZW4gYnVybm91dA%3D%3D https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KEWV5yaj_2o&pp=ygUQcHJpbWFnZ...