I've been diagnosed with bipolar disorder, I just wait and persevere. I've had to wait through dark times: hoping the suicidal thoughts will go; hoping the cry

I've been diagnosed with bipolar disorder, I just wait and persevere. I've had to wait through dark times: hoping the suicidal thoughts will go; hoping the crying will stop; hoping I won't take the final step. And, then, hoping the good will never leave; hoping my thoughts will continue to accelerate; hoping the pen won't stop; hoping the music in my head won't slow; hoping to dance, and wanting to run forever. I don't deal with it, I just live with it.