Before anyone dismisses this for tone, this is remarkably realistic. This is/was me. Working on that. I was the one to call the shots. Joined years ago, took

Before anyone dismisses this for tone, this is remarkably realistic. This is/was me. Working on that. I was the one to call the shots. Joined years ago, took a thing from lab to a real household product, ran out of steam, then left once the fiefdoms started settling in. I noticed the impact it had both personally and externally, leaving was an act of care for everyone. I'm still burned out. I joined a new place and made an ass out of myself in the last couple months, because of this coping mechanism. I'm preconditioned to throw elbows. Fortunately most around me seem to have realized and allowed me room to learn to be human again. I appreciate the healthier dynamics. I'm just trying to learn to participate again in good faith. It was taken from me. The last place was so dysfunctional that me, the effective/favored SRE, was leading literally by consequence - in several senses.