Sounds to me like you're closing in on burnout, possibly w/ impostor syndrome. I would rather take a step back, here. You're not actually just looking for a suc

Sounds to me like you're closing in on burnout, possibly w/ impostor syndrome. I would rather take a step back, here. You're not actually just looking for a success story "in programming," but something more. Take a moment to cognitively restructure (ask chatgpt to help, it's _very_ good at it) so that you feel at peace. Do that so your creative mind has space.