Lots of layoffs over last few years. Stuck at a company with high pay that I loathe (bad leadership, focus, expecting do 2 peoples worth of work) and searching

Lots of layoffs over last few years. Stuck at a company with high pay that I loathe (bad leadership, focus, expecting do 2 peoples worth of work) and searching for a year plus with barely a nibble. I feel guilty I’m a drag on the company but so hard to move in this market. So just why I haven’t been that engaged and burnout. Maybe others have similar experience.