I was sad and directionless (sometimes angry) for a few years. Then one day something sort of "clicked" and a new direction I wanted to go sort of crystalized,

I was sad and directionless (sometimes angry) for a few years. Then one day something sort of "clicked" and a new direction I wanted to go sort of crystalized, I pursued it and never looked back. It helps that I can still pursue music as a hobby and don't feel the relentless pressure to be good -- so these days I actually get to enjoy many aspects of my dream when I feel like it and it stays fun.