I walk into the space The faces buzz nondescript words Like insect masks Alien to me With lives and meaning Loves and fears There's an incandescent buzzing Und

I walk into the space The faces buzz nondescript words Like insect masks Alien to me With lives and meaning Loves and fears There's an incandescent buzzing Under my skin My teeth ache like usual Gums bleed and remind me I am in the process of killing myself I walk down the aisle Grab a handle of vodka It whispers insults in my ears In the shaking voice of my father After his stroke The abuse slurring From the side of his mouth It always came from Now with drool Go home, pour out a cup Hands shaking, poison to lips Relief of a kind They call me the liver failure kid Done things I wish I never did On the run from a crime I don't remember doing Images of the dead kid on the news Hit and run Any information on the suspect Is appreciated I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself God I wanna die