Ultimately I've had to get to a point where I realize I'm grateful for the life I live now, and accelerating through school would have changed a lot of it, such

Ultimately I've had to get to a point where I realize I'm grateful for the life I live now, and accelerating through school would have changed a lot of it, such that I probably wouldn't have met some of the people most important to me, so I'm grateful for it in the long run. But I don't know that I'll ever stop wondering, and it's not a comparative gratitude, because I'm sure my life could have become beautiful like this in other ways. It's more a practice of radical acceptance with gratitude. I will say one of the things that always made me laugh was that at each milestone, like finishing elementary school and starting middle school, my parents would try to tell me now it would be different, because I was at a higher level. I remember pointing out to them all the same doofuses from the previous years were moving up right along with me, and it wasn't just that I was ahead of them, but that I was faster, so this didn't seem to help. I never did understand why they thought that would work!