Just so we're clear: You're agreeing right? You're irrational about this and as a result it's damaged your life. You reached a situation where everyday things

Just so we're clear: You're agreeing right? You're irrational about this and as a result it's damaged your life. You reached a situation where everyday things are "too dirty" and rather than realising that's a mental health problem and you might need to fix that, you... found an expensive and elaborate coping strategy which necessitates further crazy beliefs.