What a turbulence of emotions and thoughts this invokes in me; I envy this guys beautiful and rich love for his wife, since I haven't felt similar myself. Simu

What a turbulence of emotions and thoughts this invokes in me; I envy this guys beautiful and rich love for his wife, since I haven't felt similar myself. Simultaneously I also really feel for him and the grief and miss that comes from losing someone you love; I still somewhat often talk to my mother who passed to remind her that I still think of her and out of love. These emotions are ambiguously painful and meaningful.