Diagnosed at 15, avoided prescriptions based on my friend's recommendation. Gave in and tried adderall at 19, turned certain parts of my life around. However, a

Diagnosed at 15, avoided prescriptions based on my friend's recommendation. Gave in and tried adderall at 19, turned certain parts of my life around. However, after ~6 mo. taking it, it gave me severe erectile dysfunction and muted my arousal. Like, vagina-of-the-most-attractive-woman-I've-ever-known-in-my-face and my arousal is a total flatline, dick totally shiveled & limp. I tried every ED medication, and although those would give me hard-ons, they were pleasureless. The arousal that feels like 'sexual electricity' in my veins was completely absent. This issue did not completely go away until I had been off of adderall for 3 years. All in all medication was a double edged sword. My life is a real challenge/mess as I fail to complete important things I'm demonstrably capable of in a timely fashion. However, while I was medicated, I was completely dependent on it to even get out of bed, and it made me feel extremely hopeless and pathetic w/r/t women.