I don't regret it. I just think how lucky i am, that i didn't lose myself completely. There were a few close calls though back then they didn't scare me. They

I don't regret it. I just think how lucky i am, that i didn't lose myself completely. There were a few close calls though back then they didn't scare me. They were cool stories (in my and my friends minds back then). Today i think differently about that. My close calls were with very clean drugs. Seeing all these crazy new drugs & what they're mixed with, i believe these close calls would have been final ones for me. I think the experiences did a lot of damage to my young brain, but also, everyone is damaged one way or the other. But man, i got fun memories. Alongside sad & scary ones. The last 10 years i was so "focused" on creating something and spent most of time working on stuff (on the computer). Pulling 12-14 hour days or 1-2 days no sleep at all regularly... A lot of less real life memories. That is something i regret much more. Especially now that i am a father and turned 30. I still spend my working hours too focused on trying something big, now that i have already wasted my good years on the computer. This is actually something i regret. Because i feel now that i still didn't do much of significant work & always struggle financially, i am a loser. But i'd rather feel like a loser with less of a "wannabe change the world entrepreneur focused" past and more of a "man, was i really still such an idiot when i was 25" kind of past.