as someone who is also struggling to find work i feel quite fortunate that i am not facing depression yet. in part this is thanks to family and friends that i w

as someone who is also struggling to find work i feel quite fortunate that i am not facing depression yet. in part this is thanks to family and friends that i was able to find after moving to a new place with friendlier people. in part because i am a citizen of a country with a strong safety net so that i know i won't have to face homelessness even if i won't ever again find new work. what frustrates me is that i don't feel i can combine working and job/project searching. it's either one or the other. when i am working on a project (either paid or a side project for myself) then i can't focus on searching work, and when i am out of work i feel that i can't afford work on a side project because i need to focus on searching work. i mean i suppose i could rotate. but while i don't have work i always feel like i am not doing enough to find more work, and i can't code while i have that on my mind. even now while i have a paid project, while i know i should be looking for followup projects once this one is done, i can't do that because thinking about that interferes with my ability to code. coding takes 100% focus (and i do enjoy that) so while i am working nothing else gets done.