> so to bottom out intensely like that feels extremely hopeless. Had a similar experience to you but took it in a different way. Came down out of the craziness

> so to bottom out intensely like that feels extremely hopeless. Had a similar experience to you but took it in a different way. Came down out of the craziness and realized "hey, I'm still here, shit could be a lot worse" But I don't get why you still came back to them after having a negative reaction. Seems like a good sign to stop