Your friend is operating outside of some of your implicitedly accepted social norms. And now you have FOMO because he has more agency. You are exploring the s

Your friend is operating outside of some of your implicitedly accepted social norms. And now you have FOMO because he has more agency. You are exploring the space of the implications [of having more agency]. Sounds like an interesting thing to ponder. I don't have much else to add but I'm remembering another "weird" place; I saw a documentary about a circus school in Montreal that feeds into Cirque du Soliel, lot of fun/odd personalities in there.