If your history was so traumatic that you cannot forget and you cannot move on, then your only option, assuming you want to salvage what remains of your life, i

If your history was so traumatic that you cannot forget and you cannot move on, then your only option, assuming you want to salvage what remains of your life, is to change it. Change your history. Is it cheating? Yes. But what is the alternative? You want to continue to live with the misery and suffering? It's not ever going to go away. Those kinds of memories do not fade. Time alone does not heal anything, and you only get one life. Do whatever you can do to salvage it.