Anecdotally, whenever I keep a journal through difficult times, my handwriting's so bad that I can't read it after a while, and the journal ends up being "write

Anecdotally, whenever I keep a journal through difficult times, my handwriting's so bad that I can't read it after a while, and the journal ends up being "write-only" as well. I wonder whether the ripping-it-up would be more cathartic.