I'm similar to you there; the old addage "one is too many, two is too few" (or whatever the current version of that is) always ruled my drinking; I didn't need

I'm similar to you there; the old addage "one is too many, two is too few" (or whatever the current version of that is) always ruled my drinking; I didn't need alcohol, but when I started I'd keep going - nice to have a name for it. Unrelated to any of this, I have a number of mental health issues, and recently I found that alcohol no longer gives me any of the euphoria effects that is used to do (obviously I still had the negative effects); once I noticed that, my desire for alchol went to zero and I've not touched it since - no idea if I am still have the same response to alcohol, but I'm not going to test it, for obvious reasons :)