Does this seem odd to anyone else? This adult in their 30s: (1) Goes on a date with someone he calls a 'girl' (2) Think the date went well (it likely didn't)

Does this seem odd to anyone else? This adult in their 30s: (1) Goes on a date with someone he calls a 'girl' (2) Think the date went well (it likely didn't) (3) Never reflects on why it didn't go well (at least he doesn't write about it) (4) He then talk to a self-proclaimed psychopath with the hope of actionable advice for giving no effs in the future (5) Gets micro-dosing curious (which is a lot of self experimentation) ...and all that instead of maybe changing how he approaches dates? Then he writes about it. If this isn't gorilla advertising for magic mushrooms, it is a lot of work to avoid a small amount of self-reflection. I know firsthand that being single post 20s isn't anyone's idea of a party, but still.