I think what has happened is that you have come to terms with your own mortality. It isn't something which comes early in life, or even at all for some people.

I think what has happened is that you have come to terms with your own mortality. It isn't something which comes early in life, or even at all for some people. As time progresses a bit more you will realise it changes nothing, because nothing has changed! There are things we will never see, or experience, or do. That's life.