First thank you for great question. Those are among few things really worth talking about :) 1. afaik, monotheistic god is never she in any major religion, the

First thank you for great question. Those are among few things really worth talking about :) 1. afaik, monotheistic god is never she in any major religion, there are number of philosophical and other reasons behind it 2. the most logical and non contradictory answer i've come to so far (who knows what future will bring) to the question "why is there something other than nothing?" is that something uncreated has decided or made such a choice. Or even dropped a coin, but coins dont drop by themselves. 3. the greek "unmoved mover" if you like. This resolves the recursive problem (who created the creator?) 4. In other words to have anything relative - there must be something absolute. 5. If this absolute made a choice to have something - this absolute is a person (at least to some degree by our human standards). 6. God as a bearded guy somewhere on the cloud or in the end of the universe - is a naive dumb strawman version of god that pseudo-theologists like Dawkins/Harris exploit over and over to look smarter than they are and sell books/tours. 7. Atheism as a faith in the absence of god is functionally indistinguishable from religious radicalism. Because the same way we can not prove the existence of God, we can't really _prove_ the absence of something like God. And religious radicalists believe not so much in god but rather in some specific set of interpretations (which are technically not God). And they make these interpretations and their self-righteousness the focus of their faith, not the god. Same way so called atheists make dogma out of their beliefs and enjoy hating and mocking believers so much. So strictly speaking you either a believer or an agnostic. If you stay within rational domain.