I feel the same way, but I actually take some comfort from it. Not to get too woo woo on you, but personal experience suggests to me that it is possible to be

I feel the same way, but I actually take some comfort from it. Not to get too woo woo on you, but personal experience suggests to me that it is possible to be conscious without having an ego or sense of self and that a state of mind where that is largely absent is characterised by a lack of distinction between the vestigal self and everything else. I'm not dismissive of the idea that consciousness doesn't necessarily exist 'in the brain' but is in fact a fundamental part of the universe.