Almost 51 here. I moved countries partly because it refreshes my mental clock. So much to learn and experience and try new things. I've lived more in the past y

Almost 51 here. I moved countries partly because it refreshes my mental clock. So much to learn and experience and try new things. I've lived more in the past year than the previous 5, and filled up the photo book so much. I'm truly sorry about all the bad memories. I do know what that is like, many what-ifs. If you're receptive to any thoughts: Mourn them, but try not to waste the present being angry about the past, or you'll regret missing out on this time too. Give yourself another shot, try again. There will be a time where you don't get any more chances, but it's not yet. I know post-70 year olds that have cycled up mountains in France. One that just stopped being a climber after two replaced hips. I'm sorry about the kids. Maybe travel and meeting someone is still an option. Take care.