Feeling: Feeling suicidal for the last week or so. Felt depressed for the last couple months, thankfully anxiety is still an unknown emotion for me. Reasons: A

Feeling: Feeling suicidal for the last week or so. Felt depressed for the last couple months, thankfully anxiety is still an unknown emotion for me. Reasons: Any hope I had of fulfilling my lifelong dream ended half a year ago. Somebody who I envied my entire life, and always tried to surpass, achieved it despite putting in far less effort than me (what I think; the reality may be different). Some people who I thought were close to me started to alienate me. That's the wrong word for it, they weren't doing anything that they thought was wrong. I realized that the next 2-8 years of my life will be terrible due to a very important decision that somebody took on my behalf. This somebody is also someone very close to me. I am in no position to say this, but things really do get better. Even if you think there's no hope right now, you can't predict what may happen in the future. You may meet new people, understand some interesting stories. There's just too many variables for someone to confidently say that their life will be fruitless. I am not a certified counsellor or anything but if anybody wants to talk my email(s) is in my profile.