Sounds like how I feel in a lot of ways, for me it's due to depression. My depression is complicated but your specific job could be making you depressed, or it'

Sounds like how I feel in a lot of ways, for me it's due to depression. My depression is complicated but your specific job could be making you depressed, or it's just the (unfortunately common) "growing up roadblock" where at some point we realize we have to readjust our expectations and goals to align with what reality more or less allows us to do. I've been with my company for 11 years and there have definitely been ups and downs, including me moving to an entirely different department as a trial instead of outright quitting. There will always be compromises no matter where you work, even at a dream job. Most days I struggle to merely exist but my company has built goodwill by working with me instead of mercilessly writing me up for whatever they can to fire me, as I've read about at many places. What makes a good workplace has to do with the work, but more has to do with the business itself and how management directs the atmosphere. Hopefully this helps without being preachy :)