We have talked, and we're currently freshly broken up. It's killing me. I've had breakups before, but this feels like I'm mourning a happy future with children

We have talked, and we're currently freshly broken up. It's killing me. I've had breakups before, but this feels like I'm mourning a happy future with children where she would be a great mother. We both want kids. We really bond over home repair and long bike rides and walks, but due to a language barrier, we struggle to convey complex topics to one another. It constantly feels like we're babying each other. When I speak with my colleagues who have better English, I constantly feel like I learn more from them than I ever will from her, and that makes me sad. > You should want to stay because you love her and want a future with her. Genuinely, I thought love was enough. I do want a future with her, but I also want her to be a little smarter and more perceptive and more interested in things around her. She's made great strides in the years we've been together; using wikipedia to learn the context of things, asking follow up questions to topics I bring up, she really tries... I'm just not sure if she will get there. > Here's a curveball question: have you ever considered that you might be autistic? Apparently I'm low on the spectrum according to an online quiz I just took > Another curveball question: do you want kids generally, or do you specifically want kids with her? I want to have kids, and I want her to have kids because she'd be a wonderful mother. It doesn't have to be with me, but I feel this sense of guilt that I'm robbing her of this future