I think it began from the moment that I realised that I needed to study in order to become better. That's when things became more deliberate in terms of focus,

I think it began from the moment that I realised that I needed to study in order to become better. That's when things became more deliberate in terms of focus, and I think in the process of doing that, is when things became more difficult to reason with. But it's a catch-22. In the case of music, I felt demotivated making music, because it didn't sound like how I wanted to. But then focusing on study also demotivated me, because I wasn't making music and it felt like I was going off into another realm.