Without turning this post into a book, I think what you are feeling is very normal, and perhaps even a healthy moment of reflection. If you consider time to be

Without turning this post into a book, I think what you are feeling is very normal, and perhaps even a healthy moment of reflection. If you consider time to be the single most precious resource, then perhaps you can figure out how you want to use it. If that's in bacchanalian and hedonistic pursuits, then great. If that's in self-discovery, great. Maybe on your path you'll find therapy or diet or exercise or hobbies or meds will bring renewal. My guess would be at some point you will find something that sparks renewed interest and you'll find the balance.