I can completely relate to this, and was in a similar place not too long ago. My personal recommendation would be to check out Vipassana (dhamma.org) - it was a

I can completely relate to this, and was in a similar place not too long ago. My personal recommendation would be to check out Vipassana (dhamma.org) - it was a life-changing experience, and the first to actually address some of the mental issues I was facing.