Its serious question. I am stuck in a loop of taking clients money to bootstrap my startup but i need much more to pay a few other engineers to show companies

Its serious question. I am stuck in a loop of taking clients money to bootstrap my startup but i need much more to pay a few other engineers to show companies like these that they produce garbage. Even apple is running in the totally wrong direction. Until now i was under the impression i'd need to hustle more to earn cash & build the prototype. But that won't be fast enough. I can't watch people that just don't get it but try to imitate apple (website, keynote, lol) with just some bullshit. The more i watch from the sidelines, the more i am reassured that we are building something incredible that nobody sees coming. But we are not located in the EU, not the US. So i am not sure what i should do.