You appear to be inserting your own words into my mouth. Nowhere did I say I was terrible. In fact, I'm doing better than ever before. That's in large part due

You appear to be inserting your own words into my mouth. Nowhere did I say I was terrible. In fact, I'm doing better than ever before. That's in large part due to accurate accounting. You even say I'm "sitting here" with a connotation of passivity, as if there's no way I could be typing this at a standing desk or a phone while on the move. You're trying to hammer "victim mentality" so hard down my throat it's... kind of hilarious. These grandiose achievements as you put them consist of basic necessities for survival. The fact you use words like "grandiose" reveals a deeply dismissive attitude towards the suffering of others. I'm guessing, because you've completely dismissed your own suffering, along with the benefits of accurate accounting. Maybe that was the only way for you to move forward. I'm capable of having awareness and accounting and still moving forward. You seem to be so afraid of past truth you're literally exclaiming "it doesn't matter" while intensely commenting on mine and sharing your own. So clearly it does matter to some repressed part of you. > no matter how much I felt the pain from the trauma I suffered, that trauma never went away. Soo... stop feeling the pain and just do accurate accounting. Why are you making this so complicated? > And finally I'm putting it behind me. No offense, the way you talk doesn't sound like that's actually happening.