It seems that your subconscious is telling you that it wants you transform those cycles into some kind of action. I don't know what your circumstances are. If i

It seems that your subconscious is telling you that it wants you transform those cycles into some kind of action. I don't know what your circumstances are. If it were me, in my circumstances, I would be looking for groups of similarly-minded people that I could join, or projects I could donate to. I would definitely try to be safe, I would be very concerned by being "disappeared". Good luck and I hope you find something.