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Oh yes, nitrous oxide for example lets me surface and approach traumatic events without over-whelming anxiety that blocks the memory out. I've done years of tal

Oh yes, nitrous oxide for example lets me surface and approach traumatic events without over-whelming anxiety that blocks the memory out. I've done years of talk therapy without drugs and the problem is that it's hard to let go of my ego personality when I'm talking to another person and it also takes a long time to get a therapist up to speed about what is going on with me internally, because I don't often even know. I did MDMA therapy with an alternative/underground therapist in the 90's and didn't get much out of it because it felt like the experience conformed to her expectations. I didn't feel free to let my mind wander. I'm not knocking dialog-type therapy or psychedelic therapy, but maybe I'm built different and as a computer programmer figured out how to use these drugs to debug myself.

UberFly 3y ago
Thank you - great info. Hope you keep making progress.
zozbot234 3y ago
> it's hard to let go of my ego This is what mindfulness meditation is best for. Drugs are just a cop out.
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- carpo 3y ago
  Why does it matter how someone achieves this? If it helps them and doesn't hurt anyone else, your view on the "correct" way to achieve it is really only you virtue signalling.
- OkayPhysicist 3y ago
  "Drugs are just a cop out" sounds like a massive ego talking. A tool is a tool, and there's no shame in using powerful tools to achieve a goal. Sometimes our goals might be to overcome a challenge with sub-par tools, like climbing Everest without supplemental oxygen, but most of the time our goals are simply the accomplishment in of itself, utilizing whatever tools we have available.
  - AndrewKemendo 3y ago
    Very well said. Drugs are tools like anything else and can be used or abused by the user.
asveikau 3y ago
> blocks the memory out. Not sure if this is happening with you, but please all be aware that "repressed memory" is a controversial topic and one prevailing view on this is that recalling memories that are inaccessible is actually more like injecting false memories. I wish I knew this 5 years ago when someone close to me was accusing dozens of people of abuse, which I believed ... But they turned out to be suffering psychosis, paranoia and false memories.
- labrador 3y ago
  No, I'm not recalling things that never happened, but rather facing things I wish I could forget

UberFly 3y ago

Thank you - great info. Hope you keep making progress.

zozbot234 3y ago

> it's hard to let go of my ego This is what mindfulness meditation is best for. Drugs are just a cop out.

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carpo 3y ago
Why does it matter how someone achieves this? If it helps them and doesn't hurt anyone else, your view on the "correct" way to achieve it is really only you virtue signalling.
OkayPhysicist 3y ago
"Drugs are just a cop out" sounds like a massive ego talking. A tool is a tool, and there's no shame in using powerful tools to achieve a goal. Sometimes our goals might be to overcome a challenge with sub-par tools, like climbing Everest without supplemental oxygen, but most of the time our goals are simply the accomplishment in of itself, utilizing whatever tools we have available.
- AndrewKemendo 3y ago
  Very well said. Drugs are tools like anything else and can be used or abused by the user.

asveikau 3y ago

> blocks the memory out. Not sure if this is happening with you, but please all be aware that "repressed memory" is a controversial topic and one prevailing view on this is that recalling memories that are inaccessible is actually more like injecting false memories. I wish I knew this 5 years ago when someone close to me was accusing dozens of people of abuse, which I believed ... But they turned out to be suffering psychosis, paranoia and false memories.

labrador 3y ago
No, I'm not recalling things that never happened, but rather facing things I wish I could forget