> I put my non-drug using friends through hell because of my dysfunction. It'll never be the same again. The rest of my social group knows about it now, too. G

> I put my non-drug using friends through hell because of my dysfunction. It'll never be the same again. The rest of my social group knows about it now, too. Good. Ask for their help! What is there to lose now? Maybe it won't be the same anymore, maybe they'll be able to help and you'll have some support! Losing a friend to an overdose is extremely traumatic, so if anything strive not to put them through that. Even if it means they have to know what Narcan is and where to jab it. Talk to your friends and tell them you need their help and give them an easy way to cut ties if they can't handle it. About two dozen people from my friend group have a "WhatsApp Anonymous" group going to keep myself and four other friends on the straight and narrow after we lost a few from the group to fentanyl during COVID lockdowns. The rule is that anyone can post "!!!" to the group and someone will figure out a way to get them out of the house and their mind off their troubles. One person used the emergency squawk today and was immediately invited to a New Years eve get together (They're there now, getting drunk but at least supervised). There's no rules and no obligations but it's worked well for almost three years now. Sorry I have no other advice to offer, I'm still working on my own addictions* and addiction is absolute hell. All I know is that the love and help of other people is the way out. For some people it's Narcotics Anonymous, for others its professionals at a rehab facility, but for most of us it's our friends and family. People who care. You need to face facts though: Fentanyl is everywhere now and if you keep using, this won't be your last overdose. The cravings will always come back and it'll be something you struggle with for the rest of your life, but it doesn't have to define you and it doesn't have to kill you. * Ketamine, amphetamines, nicotine, alcohol, and cannabis - haven't used either of the first 3 since COVID started