It's all good. It's one of the harder facts of life to swallow: I didn't choose the factors that lead to this, but I still have to deal with them, and I'm the

It's all good. It's one of the harder facts of life to swallow: I didn't choose the factors that lead to this, but I still have to deal with them, and I'm the only person who can. True of many things in life. I'd prefer not to add more unique data points to my HN profile for privacy reasons, but to speak in generalities, I've struggled with a variety of substances and behavioral loops since I was in my late teens stemming from that abusive background. I spent a lot of time pissed off at my parents, and later at myself for not "having the strength" to overcome these things on my own, while not understanding why I was drawn to them in the first place. If the car is eating oil, something probably needs to be tuned up, so to speak.