If there are 20 projects like this that make you sad every day, you must be terribly depressed. But you just seem entitled, and feeling sorry for yourself. You

If there are 20 projects like this that make you sad every day, you must be terribly depressed. But you just seem entitled, and feeling sorry for yourself. You don't seem very serious about pursuing and paying for your own self education or even amusement. You are aware that the University of Michigan is not a startup whose mission is to make an SaaS with a free tier for you to play with funded by their investors, right? Maybe if you enrolled as a grad student they'd let you use their resources for free (once your tuition check cleared). But your chances of being accepted into their PhD program would be higher if you showed more than $10/month in enthusiasm and initiative.