There is a deadline because it has to get done and won’t get done on its own (surprise: because no one wants to do it). So they find people like you to do it an

There is a deadline because it has to get done and won’t get done on its own (surprise: because no one wants to do it). So they find people like you to do it and they pay you to toil and essentially kill your soul for doing so. So that’s where you are. The remedy is two fold- get away from that company, take time and do nothing (smell the roses, exercise, family, whatever) and then think what you want to do, irrespective of $. If you need a job, you’re right big tech is as bad (probably worse except the pay maybe). There are teams that are slow and don’t ship that much, you could try and find those roles and coast you just need to interview the hiring manager in an intelligent way.. Anyways all the best, I hope you find peace and happiness