Sorry to hear that you lost your mom. That 4 years is such a gift though. I lost my sister to a very aggressive ovarian cancer a few years back. Diagnosed and d

Sorry to hear that you lost your mom. That 4 years is such a gift though. I lost my sister to a very aggressive ovarian cancer a few years back. Diagnosed and dead within a few months, and she had just had a baby a few months before diagnosis. She didn't make it to his first birthday. Aside from the grief there was just a feeling of such... I know it sounds odd, but "unfairness". Like the whole universe was unfair and wrong. Like there should be a big red button you can push to stop everything and demand a recount. My mom lost her religious faith the day my sister died. My father was, right to the end, certain that something would be done to save her. It was very much a "this isn't happening" moment. If some treatment had given her 4 years... She'd still be gone by now, and that would still be a tragedy, but she would have had a whale of a time with her boisterous son. He never got to know her. Sure, he would have had to deal with losing his mother. But we all experience love and loss. You can't have one without the other.