I don't think it's a shame that there are multiple types of value which often disagree. In fact I'm quite happy that attempts to reduce experience into an optim

I don't think it's a shame that there are multiple types of value which often disagree. In fact I'm quite happy that attempts to reduce experience into an optimization problem where each thing has a consistent untyped value are doomed to fail. If it were possible, it would've happened long ago and there would be no reason to bother with that awkward consciousness thing that we tend to do sometimes. I'm sorry you were conflicted about throwing something precious away, but those are the conflicts that life is made of.