I'm on the spectrum and whenever I think about possible regrets I might have on my deathbed, I always end up thinking “Who cares, I'm going to die anyway. Every

I'm on the spectrum and whenever I think about possible regrets I might have on my deathbed, I always end up thinking “Who cares, I'm going to die anyway. Everything I have experienced will vanish with me, including the regrets I might possibly have.” It's nihilistic but I can’t help it.