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> I won't drop the slightest hint that I like street racing on Sunday mornings in a certain residential neighborhood. Please don't do this. It's much-much-muc

by neilv 3y ago

> I won't drop the slightest hint that I like street racing on Sunday mornings in a certain residential neighborhood. Please don't do this. It's much-much-much worse than the other things you mention.

PaulHoule 3y ago
You're right. To my credit, I haven't in years. It's an example of the "splitting" at the root of "schizo" which helps me be able to be a member of two contradictory groups at the same time until the contradictions build up and I get expelled from both. It is not so much about being deceptive but about sincerely seeing the humanity in everyone and trying to play both roles, though there is a way you get drawn into increasing levels of duplicity if you go down that route. It's also a demonstration of how the "false self" comes out of having the experience of having to hide a vulnerability from people. (I really was prone to paranoid ideation, but the way I was treated in elementary school "proved" they really were out to get me. Boy was I furious at a friend of mine who showed contempt for the private school he went to because my parents were able to get me into private school for just one year and I was treated like... a human being and actually made some friends.) Schizotypes can oddly be very cagey sometimes yet they struggle to avoid random offputting statements that get them in trouble. When I hear "I was bullied as a kid", I can't help but think of https://www.amazon.com/Loners-Life-Path-Unusual-Children/dp/0415066654 https://www.amazon.com/Loners-Life-Path-Unusual-Children/dp/... and the interpretation of that book in https://www.amazon.com/Schizotypy-Schizophrenia-View-Experimental-Psychopathology/dp/1606238655 https://www.amazon.com/Schizotypy-Schizophrenia-View-Experim... and wonder if Asperger's is just a fad diagnosis for this.
- neilv 3y ago
  Sounds difficult. I don't know what expelled means here, but I hope your circumstances only get better.

by neilv 3y ago

PaulHoule 3y ago

You're right. To my credit, I haven't in years. It's an example of the "splitting" at the root of "schizo" which helps me be able to be a member of two contradictory groups at the same time until the contradictions build up and I get expelled from both. It is not so much about being deceptive but about sincerely seeing the humanity in everyone and trying to play both roles, though there is a way you get drawn into increasing levels of duplicity if you go down that route. It's also a demonstration of how the "false self" comes out of having the experience of having to hide a vulnerability from people. (I really was prone to paranoid ideation, but the way I was treated in elementary school "proved" they really were out to get me. Boy was I furious at a friend of mine who showed contempt for the private school he went to because my parents were able to get me into private school for just one year and I was treated like... a human being and actually made some friends.) Schizotypes can oddly be very cagey sometimes yet they struggle to avoid random offputting statements that get them in trouble. When I hear "I was bullied as a kid", I can't help but think of https://www.amazon.com/Loners-Life-Path-Unusual-Children/dp/0415066654 https://www.amazon.com/Loners-Life-Path-Unusual-Children/dp/... and the interpretation of that book in https://www.amazon.com/Schizotypy-Schizophrenia-View-Experimental-Psychopathology/dp/1606238655 https://www.amazon.com/Schizotypy-Schizophrenia-View-Experim... and wonder if Asperger's is just a fad diagnosis for this.

neilv 3y ago
Sounds difficult. I don't know what expelled means here, but I hope your circumstances only get better.