reminds me of the stories of pro ball players who work and train their whole lives to finally get signed, but they're one injury or bad season away from losing

reminds me of the stories of pro ball players who work and train their whole lives to finally get signed, but they're one injury or bad season away from losing the stardom. I'm the opposite, I have the chops to get mid-grade developer jobs (the leetcode stuff kept me from the "big leagues" of FAANG which I'm fine abstaining from, they would sniff me out very quickly) and live comfortably, but I have next to no motivation to get anything beyond the minimum done. I think ADHD is part of it (but its on me for never getting it diagnosed or treated), and sometimes I feel guilty for "stealing time" from my employer (yet I've never been fired for bad performance, somehow my JIRA tickets always get done-enough to stay afloat). I am passionate about personal projects though, and I love coding. I still get satisfaction from solving bugs, but realistically I'll never be more than a mid-level maintenance coder.