Actually, what I didn't mention is, the whole thing turned out really positive for me because I didn't self-harm, but I kind of came to a similar peaceful concl

Actually, what I didn't mention is, the whole thing turned out really positive for me because I didn't self-harm, but I kind of came to a similar peaceful conclusion, but through studying philosophy. At some point I kind of just agreed with this new idea and have been running with it since. Buddhism often tells you to let your pain and suffering be your guide, and it works,at least in my experience. Thanks for your thoughtful response.