My abiding fear is that the point where I'm sure I want no more life will arrive at the point where I have gone past the physical or mental ability to put that

My abiding fear is that the point where I'm sure I want no more life will arrive at the point where I have gone past the physical or mental ability to put that decision into practice. Like Lot's wife I'll be tempted to pause for one final look at the home I had, and so will all be lost.