One of your other comments in "Writing down unfiltered thoughts enhances self-knowledge": > I started doing this like 3 years ago. Actually have like 30+ 100pa

One of your other comments in "Writing down unfiltered thoughts enhances self-knowledge": > I started doing this like 3 years ago. Actually have like 30+ 100page sketchbooks filled so far. Keep meaning to catalogue it all, but I keep adding to it instead. I think maybe you should actually speak with someone (actual professional therapist), you look like you're on a path to become toxic yourself. I'm not telling you this to mock you, it looks like this from your comments and you should probably get help before you still can.